On 1st April 2016, I had been to Shirdi as I couldn’t make it for my
birthday on March 16. After blissful darshan I went to Gurusthan and
was looking for ‘The Neem Leaf’. Then I requested priest there to
give me ‘The Sacred Neem Leaf’. At that time it was not that strict
and there were no CCTV’s unlike now and they were allowed to give.
He did give me but it was yellowish. So I again requested him to
give me a green Neem leaf, fresh one. He got angry and went away.
This got tears in my eyes. I was trying to control as my husband
Rahul would scold me for crying for petty thing like leaf, they were
flowing ceaselessly. When he learnt the reason for which I was
crying he was surprised that I would cry so badly for ‘The Neem
Leaf’. On the other hand I was thinking that Baba would never let
His daughter leave Shirdi crying and He Himself will come and give
me ‘‘The Neem Leaf’’ as I had been to Shirdi for my birthday. But
nothing happened that way. He Himself did not come and give but He
made sure that I got two Neem leaves which our driver gave me, as
somehow he too had come to know for what I was crying so badly. But
I was not happy with it, as of now, like a kid I wanted Baba only to
come and give It to me. See He has His Own ways!
Each devotee has special and an unique bond with Baba which only
that devotee can understand. Baba is my Everything and my friend
too, so I do get angry with Him. After the return I again went to
Shirdi two times in the month of September and November. But as I
was angry with Him for that Neem leaf, I had decided that when I
visit Gurusthan for darshan and if I get the Neem Leaf I would pick
it up but I won’t ask or pray Baba for it as He would give me if He
wished. So during both the visits I returned without getting any
leaf. Then in the month of November Baba inspired the thought of
MAHAPARAYAN. I discussed with few and everyone said if Baba wishes
nothing is impossible. But I felt incapable to undertake it.
In the month of December my mother’s side family were going to
Shirdi and I too was asked to join. As I had office that day, I said
no to them although I wanted to join them. I was praying Baba to
call me as well and said, “If You call me to Shirdi I will consider
it as a positive sign for MAHAPARAYAN and somewhere I felt that it
was impossible for me to join them due to the circumstances. But as
Baba says that in a moment God Can Turn The Situation Around and so
did it happen! The circumstances became such that there was no one
to be with my son Saiesh who is just 3.5 years old and as he is my
first priority I was left with no other option than being at home
with him and for him. So instead of being at home I and Saiesh
joined my mother’s side family for Shirdi which was actually my
heart’s desire. I was so happy I can’t explain.
On the way I don’t know why I said, “Baba, let this Shirdi visit be
a lifetime memory. Then after having the darshan, as usual we went
to the Gurusthan. This time I had forgotten that I would not talk
with Baba regarding The Neem Leaf. What I saw now was that there
were still more and more provisions done so that the leaves don’t
fall on the ground. There were more nets than before and also CCTV’s
because of which even the priests if any inside, won’t give. I
wondered and looking upwards towards the provisions, unconsciously
said in mind, “Tere Ishaare Bina Ek Patta Bhi Nahi Hil Sakhta, Aur
Kya Tu Mujhe Ek Patta Bhi Nahi De Sakhta???” (Not A Leaf Can Move
Without Your Consent And Still You Can’t Give Me A Single Leaf???)
Then I totally forgot about it and was moving round The Sacred Neem
Tree. When I was almost done I happened to have an eye contact with
an old man in white shirt, white dhoti, white warkari (a pilgrim)
cap, with a bold enough circular sandal tika on the forehead, just
like that is put on Baba’s Samadhi idol in Shirdi, Who was standing
with a stick for support near Gurusthan at a distance of almost 5 to
6 feet with many people in between us as that day it was very
crowded. I felt something different as those eyes did have that
spark as our first meeting which I mentioned in the previous post,
but it was little less than before. I had the feeling Is He Baba?
Then to confirm I first checked whether He was wearing chappals
(footwear) as He had not worn them last time and later while reading
Sai Satcharitra it struck that Baba too did not wear. Then I saw
that the old man did wear chappals and so the over smart me said,
“Ah, He is not Baba as He is wearing chappals”. Then when I gave up
the thought of Him being Baba, again we both had an eye contact
although we were at a considerable distance. Felt strange but still
I ignored Him. Then after hardly few minutes when I was walking
towards my family what I saw was that outside the donation office
(which is near Shani, Ganpati, Shiv mandir) my mom and son Saiesh
were sitting on a bench and the same old man was there and talking
with my mom. I was now little more surprised and wondered that there
is definitely something strange, as right now at this moment there
are thousands of people here and how and why this same old man has
to go and meet my mom only? I hurriedly walked towards them and
enquired mom what He was saying. She said,” He is asking some money
for tea. What should I do?” I said, “ok give 10 rupees then”. Then
she gave me 10 rupees and said that you only give Him.
While giving Him I said in Marathi, “Kuthun Aalaat Baba” (Baba,
Where have You come from?)
Old Man: “Datta”
Thinking that the old man did not hear properly I again asked in
Marathi
I : “Naahi Baba, Mi Vicharle Ki Kuthun Alaat Tumhi?”(No Baba, I am
asking Where have You come from?)
Old Man: Mi Ithlaas Aahes, Shirdit Asto Mi. (I am from Shirdi itself
and at Shirdi I am there)
Although I was surprised at the answers but had not fully realised
the essence of it, I felt like touching His feet, but I did not,
thinking that people will take me mad that to any old man in white
clothes I take Him to be Baba. Although my doubt that He is Baba was
slowly getting confirmed, I still ignored Him thinking that people
would laugh at me if He was not Baba. Then He walked away.
After few minutes all 7 or 8 of us started walking towards the Shani,
Ganpati, Shiv temple. As we were walking I again happened to see the
same old man Who was sitting outside the Ganpati temple and this
time He called me signaling with His hand. He said that He wanted to
give me something but He had forgotten and He started putting His
hand inside the pocket which was located near His stomach. I was
again astonished and by the time He removed His hand from the
pocket, in those few seconds I believed that He is Baba only and
like in Sai Satcharitra He is now going to give me back some amount
from the dakshina of 10 Rs which was given and I would treasure it
and never spend it lifelong even if it was one or two rupees.
Eagerly I went and stood in front of Him and He with His right palm
facing sky with ‘A Single Neem Leaf’ placed on it extended His hand
towards me…! I myself had forgotten about the statement that I had
said few minutes back to Baba about the Neem Leaf but Baba had not.
Then what to speak? I was on cloud 9, I did not think of anyone and
started crying out of joy and placed my head at His Feet, held them
and was not ready to leave Him as now I did not have any doubts of
Him being Baba. I cried, I wept and was overjoyed to be at His feet
so closely and wished to wash His feet with my tears.
Then He said that He was an ordinary man and that He had no one.
Then He said that He had to leave then. I said, “No Baba, You are
not going anywhere. With others You spend three-three hours (my
friend Rakshita’s experience) and with me wait atleast for 5
minutes. He was getting up and I was crying out of joy and literally
pulling Him down to sit and this went on repeatedly. He also said if
He did not go then there would be a problem and security people
would scold Him. I said, “Baba, who can scold You here? Please
wait”. I asked Him where is it that He had to go so hurriedly. He
answered, “Temple”. I gave Him 100 Rs. and bowed down again and then
He said, “Kalyan Ho, Kalyan Ho”. As my family members were not fully
aware of the whole episode, they even laughed at me. Although I was
not allowing Him to go and was telling my mom that He is Baba only
and as He was Baba only He managed me to somehow let Him go.
I was feeling blessed that Baba called to Shirdi, met and even gave
the Neem leaf as a signal For Mahaparayan. What else could I ask
for? This was actually the first confirmation given by Baba to go
ahead with MAHAPARAYAN, later the dream (Yesterday’s post) was the
second one. My family members were astonished at my behaviour and
were laughing recalling the way I was pulling Him back. But later
when I told them everything they too wondered and felt lucky to have
got His darshan as they too had bowed at His feet and had given Him
100 Rs as dakshina. Now I was recalling back everything. Baba had
answered, “Datta” on being asked where He came from? And I was
thinking that He must have not heard right. Right was He; as Sai
Baba, Swami Samarth, Gajanan Maharaj all are incarnation Of Lord
Datta! When again asked He said that He is there at Shirdi and from
Shirdi itself. Also when asked where He wanted to go so hurriedly
and He said Temple! Why didnt He call my mom or someone else and How
He gave only a single leaf, about which even I had forgotten? He
saying “Kalyan Ho, Kalyan Ho!” rarely an ordinary man would say it
that way. Also in that span of 15 to 20 minutes He came across me
three times and that too He was always ahead of me each time. Later
I was there in Shirdi for more than an hour and even kept looking
for Him but I couldn’t find Him anywhere again!
Baba’s leela doesn’t end here. This all happened on 30th Dec. 2016
Friday and on 2nd Jan. 2017 Monday my mom was telling my
mother-in-law about the old man. At the end my mom said one thing we
did not understand that He was such a poor man by clothes and why
did He leave His chappals there which were good enough and go away?
When I heard this I was shocked and exclaimed, “What? He left His
chappals? Why dint you tell me before? That was the first thing that
I had checked at Gurusthan, whether He was wearing chappals?” To
this she said that me too was there when all this was said when He
had left, but somehow I had not caught it as overwhelmed with
gratitude and joy was I! But Baba made sure that I come to know
about the chappals too and that however smart we try to be, He plays
His leelas well, after all His ways are His Ways!
Source: Shirdisaiexperiences.org