—By Sai Devotee Reena
We have been blessed with a baby boy and this is due to the grace of Baba. I suffered two miscarriages in the years 2007 and 2008 respectively and therefore, apprehensions of another pregnancy and maintaining it were high. Regardless of my losses, I decided to hold faith in Baba and remain loyal to Him and be patient. I prayed to Him for strength and to show me the way out of this.
We wanted a child
desperately and that too, without losing anytime. We were married for 8 years
already and then there was this problem that further age advancement could lead
to problems in having children. I would repeatedly tell my husband that perhaps
it would be best on our part to adopt and get rid of this tension.
My husband would say that we'll wait for another 2 years and see how things
happen. During this period, I would often do Sai Parayan (reading of Sai
Satcharita) for seven saptahs, this time not for a child in specific but for
some peace of mind
and to pray to Baba to show me a way out of this. I thus, completely surrendered
myself to Baba and decided to wait on His decision. There are stories in Sai
Satcharita about how Baba blessed childless couples and those stories would bring tears into my
eyes.
Not only this but the parayan had a profound effect on me. I was drawing closer
to Baba, my love for Him was growing and I could feel that I had nothing to
think about other than Baba, nothing else to meditate upon and remember but Him
all the time. I reached a stage where I was becoming detached with my sorrow and
pain of not having a child. Rather, I was acquiring
interest
in reading stories of Baba's lifetime, His contemporary saints and so on. It was
as if, the goal of my life to love Baba whole-heartedly and to keep loving Him
all the time.
JAI SAI RAM!