Sai Leela-377 - Baba is teaching me Faith & Patience
Om Sai Ram. I consider Baba to be my God, my
Guru, my guardian angel and best friend. This site is a modern day version of
the Sai Satcharitra and I am very grateful for the efforts put in by the team to
bring devotees closer to Baba. Although I ask my details are kept anonymous, I
pray my experience will help someone in need and give them the utmost faith and
patience. Baba please forgive me for any mistakes I make in this post
unintentionally.
Here in the UK, women have a check-up every 3 to 5 years to ensure there are no
abnormalities which could lead to certain types of cancer. I recently had mine
and had not received the results. I chased the results but was told that this
year will take some time which I accepted and they do say no news is good news
so I wasn't worried and forgot about it. Nearly 2 months from my appointment, I
received the letter and asked my husband to open it as I was in the middle of
something - he opened it but as I was being impatient I also went over to read
it and it said low level of abnormalities were found and I also had infection. I
could not believe what I was reading, I just could not understand how and why.
I went straight into panic mode and could not even gather my thoughts together.
I could not concentrate, I was in shock. The letter went onto say that a follow
up appointment was arranged and I would receive an appointment letter soon. I
rang the hospital straight away to find out when this was and it was in nearly 2
weeks. I knew I could not wait this long. I rang a private hospital and made an
appointment for the next day but it would be for a consultation - no procedure
would be done (for further investigation). Basically I would be told what was on
the letter but face to face. I rang and spoke to the hospital again to
understand what was on the letter and also because I felt I needed to speak to
someone. I was crying on the phone as all I could think about was my son growing
up without a mother. Honestly, the nurse I spoke to was a God send and she
booked me an appointment for a further investigation in 3 days’ time and not in
2 weeks. I knew I had to keep busy and occupied until then.
In this time I thought of Baba so much, I asked Him to give me faith and
patience and to make sure everything will be ok, especially as I have a young
baby. I asked Sai Baba, Hanumanji and all the Gods to stay with me and come with
me to my appointment on Monday. Within the 3 days, I spoke to people who kept me
calm and reassured me. I asked them all to pray for me. Baba must love one of us
a lot to answer the prayer. I am normally a very anxious person but during this
time Sai Baba had definitely been with me. He stayed with me and held my hand to
keep me calm. Whenever I remembered Sai Baba, when I said Sai Baba’s name, when
I prayed to Him, I knew He was there and He wasn't going to go anywhere. I had
asked Sai Baba and the Gods to come to the appointment with me and not leave my
side. The day of my appointment came, my husband and my baby came with me. It
was a beautiful day and the sun was shining - I knew Baba was with me. The nurse
explained what the letter said and said they may need to take a biopsy. I was
scared if they took a biopsy I would have to wait longer for results.
Whilst the investigation, I was holding Baba’s picture, I was chanting His name.
The nurse said no biopsy was needed and to have a follow up appointment in 12
months to make sure everything was ok. That was the best news that I could have
received. I was so relieved. This was all possible because Baba was there!
Because Hanumanji was there and because all the Gods were there. It was such a
weight lifted off all my shoulders. I honestly believe everything that Baba
does, is done for a reason and this is why I know for sure.
When I was pregnant, we had a ceremony and money was collected from the aarti,
with this money, we had said we would buy some clothes for the neo natal unit so
babies could benefit. Nearly 9 months had passed but I had not done this. I had
forgotten about it if I am being honest. When the appointment confirmation came
through with the ward details, I suddenly remembered the clothes I said we would
get. I bought the clothes before the appointment and we took them to the ward
before my appointment time. Whilst waiting for my appointment, my husband had
lost faith. He had lost his wedding ring and was sure he would not find it. I
told him to ask Baba for help and have full faith that it will surely be found.
Indeed we found it.
I also feel that even though I remembered Baba daily, I was not following His
teachings and remembering to have faith and patience. I had become a bitter,
selfish and angry person. There were people I was willing to cut ties with for
silly reasons. This experience has made me see life in a different way and made
me see where I have done wrong. I can see that life should be lived in a calm
manner and to live in the present and not in the past or future. The next 12
months may be hard but I pray Baba continues to stay with me, guides me onto the
right path and gives me another chance to live life in a manner in which Baba
would be proud.
Source:
As Narrated by a devotee from UK. Shirdi Sai Experience.com